THE PATH TO FREEDOM part 3
True freedom can only be achieved by those who become emotionally free, not just physically. Exploring and processing our emotions, letting go of the past, forgiving ourselves and others, and embracing our own truth lead us to this freedom.
My most painful prison was my emotions. The constant fluctuations of the outside world always shook me up. I was mostly like a marionette puppet, controlled by the puppeteer's movements and intentions. I surrendered myself, my feelings, and ultimately my life to others (usually the prince on the white horse), giving up all responsibility for my life and emotions to the outside world. I tried to please everyone everywhere, to be good enough and to be loved. I was not only exposed to the love and goodwill of others, but also to the responses of the wounded child inside me to the events of the world. My life and emotions were like being on a roller coaster, I never knew when the next wave peak or valley would be. Not only could I not express my feelings, but I mostly did not understand them, nor did I feel them.
In fact, I only started to become free when I started taking full, 100% responsibility for my emotional life. When I understood at every level that I could only transform my inner turmoil and emotional pain when I accepted that these were factors that promoted my growth. ❤
Yoga and meditation helped me see the chaos within me and to let go of identification with my emotions for shorter or longer periods of time. Therapy and coaching helped me process various life situations, but the greatest help and breakthrough for me was the self-work I did with RRT (Rapid Relief Therapy), which not only allowed me to face my deepest, darkest parts, but also helped me process the emotional garbage that had accumulated within me and gain significant practice in effectively managing my emotions. 🙏
I had no idea it was possible, let alone how incredibly liberating it is to live in this emotional security and freedom today. The quality of my emotions and my perception has completely changed. I have transitioned from the roller coaster to an infinitely soft magical carpet on which I can fly and discover the world openly. I no longer have to defend myself against others or the events of the world. I am able to express my feelings openly and honestly without fear of judgment, shame, or retaliation (...although sometimes I'm still scared, but I do it anyway...😱). One of life's greatest gifts is to connect with others on a deeper level, to build meaningful relationships based on trust and mutual understanding, and to experience the state of true love.
“Love, joy, and peace cannot flourish until you have freed yourself from mind dominance. But they are not what I would call emotions. They lie beyond the emotions, on a much deeper level. So you need to become fully conscious of your emotions and be able to feel them before you can feel that which lies beyond them. Emotion literally means ‘disturbance.’ The word comes from the Latin emovere, meaning ‘to disturb.’” Eckhart Tolle